Welcome the New Year - Hope it is a Good One!

It's a New Year, I hope it's a better one for me as last year wasn't so great. Towards the end of the year I had to make a really hard decision but I think in the end I am ok with what I decided. I had my last testosterone injention on the 19th December 2011 and it is the last injection I will have. The testosterone will remain in my body for 12 weeks from that date and then slowly my body will go back to producing it's female hormones. It took me a long time to be approved for testosterone therapy and I don't think I would change a thing, it was a journey I had to take, a road that taught me important lessons. I am more comfortable with my body now, I am prepared for how it will change when I am no longer on Testosterone and I am ok with that. I am intersexed, I identify as Gender Fluid, it can be hard for people to understand my gender identity of being neither male of female but both or none depending on the day or my mood. I will always have female anatomy with some differences, I will always be hairy, I may always be called or mistaken as female even though I prefer male pronouns, but I am ok with it all I think. It was a long journey and a spiritual path for me, but I became myself and I am happy this way. I look forward to the testosterone leaving my body and seeing the changes that will bring me and adjusting to the way things will be.
I am getting back into my spirituality, my paganism, witchcraft, spells and magic, another thing that a lot of people don't understand either but for me the time is right for it. I lost it for a while but I feel stronger now and confident enough to get back into it.
I really want to get back into crafts, there are some things I am interested in doing but I can't because we don't have the money or the supplies but I hope that we can get some throughout the year while we are saving for a van, this year will be hard moneywise because we need as much  money to go into getting a van so I can get proper wheelchairs but I think it will be good once we get there, it is something to look forward to.
I hope I write more this year, I hated that I wasn't writing much last year but I was so sick most the time and had so much going on it was just really hard to do.
I have something to exercise with now, and the times I have used it it has felt really good to do something physical, I miss being really fit and physical like I used to be, but I hope I can get fit enough to do an endurance trial with Dreamer on my own, I will have to afford a good handcycle or all terrain wheelchair to do it but it is something I have wanted to do with Dreamer for a while and I hope I get myself fit this year.
That's all for today. Hope everyone is having a good New Year and coping with the holidays okay.
Titan

Photo: 1st January 2012 Box of Assorted Pens, Pencils, Markers etc